CHANGE...

To change your life
You must first change your mind
To change the mind
You need to change the dialogue


This isn't something that comes easy
It takes work!
Work, that seems impossible
Have to push past the current
Shit looks bleak
The future uncertain
Still need to hold onto something

One human in a row boat
Lost upon a salted sea of sorrow
Waves of fear crashing
Only moments
Before sinkin to the bottom
Hope it will be better tomorrow
Something to keep ya goin
Not one perceives the tears
While walking down the sidewalk

It's you again
Me here, lookin me in the mirror
Feelin the worth of zero
Hate for the reflection
Need to say something positive
Fighting an inward battle
No worth, not much value
The spirit breaks
Those tears send shivers and shakes
Need to say what I don't believe
The words I love you
Have always been hate

Hey, you in the mirror
You're OK
I love you
You have value

The mind fights
It doesn't know this reality
Those words
Spoken out loud
Shit doesn't seem to be working
It's been years of self-torment

Each day
The row boat makes it
One day closer
Those waves of fear
Once mighty
Now just up and over
Tomorrow is doable
Maybe, possibly I will survive this

It's back in the mirror
Wearing a half frown smile
The words aren't such a challenge
It's you
Me, looking at me in the mirror

I love you
You are doing great
You are something of value
Life is beautiful
You deserve to be happy

It makes me feel better
Life isn't black now
More like the morning gray
It's not blue skies and sun rays
But it's not dark either

I told myself things will get better
Except now I believe it

My row boat is parked on the beach
I'm strolling along the sidewalk
Now wearing a smile
It's not over
The journey has only started

Gocni Schindler